Monday, 11 July 2016

What's In My Bag : Pink Louis Vuitton

Ello ello everyone! I'm back here today to do one of my favourite posts to read like EVER! You may have already guessed but i'm doing. It's a 'What's In My Bag'...

About the bag: If you're not interested just skip past but if you are i'll just tell you a wee bit about this bag... It is a Louis Vuitton Vernis in hot pink and it is in the reade pm. It looks pretty much a mini tote bag. It's really small, which is great for me because I hate carrying a lot around. If you are a minimalist like me, this could be the perfect bag for you. The measurements: 9" wide and 7" tall. The green bag charm I got from and literally the only reason I got it was, they gave me a $10 voucher to use and saw this for like $12 I think so I pretty much got a steal.

Now to the fun stuff...

1. 2016 Diary. I have tried so many different diarys and agendas and i'm yet to find one that I love. I have been looking at getting one of the Louis Vuitton agendas for a while but not sure if they will be exactly worth the money. If you have one, let me know what you think about it. I like the idea of them like filling and decorating with things you love and really making it yours.
2. Hello Kitty pen I got from a magazine last week. Yes I bought a Hello Kitty magazine last week. Don't judge haha. 
3. Sunglasses that I got for like $5NZD from Aliexpress. They are actually really good quality for the price and anything pink and glittery, give it to me! I just use a MinkPink case because it's the only soft case I have and since my bag is so tiny I can't fit a bigger case in there.
4. My super old Iphone 4S. My fiance gave it to me when he got a new phone like a year and a half ago. I do want a new one but I always decide against it because I don't know if I can justify that much money on a frigin' phone.
5. Pink Vernis Louis Vuitton phone case. I use this phone case as a card hold it all which keeps all my cards in and it's the perfect size.

1. Marc Jacobs Translucent Pressed Powder. This is my favourite powder to touch up my makeup with during the day. It's not powdery at all, it just takes the shine away. In the compact is the big mirror which is so handy so I don't have to carrying around a separate mirror.
2. Clarins Instant Lip Perfector. Love these they aren't sticky at all and makes my lips plump a bit without looking like i've got 'product' on my lips. Also the smell is really good (suprise, suprise I got the pink one).
3. Marc Jacobs Lip Gloss in 326 Pink Flamingo . I adore this lip gloss so much. I haven't tried any of the other colours in this range yet but I definitely will be purchasing more in the future. Again it smells amazing, not sticky, feels really lightweight on.

So... That is all that lives in my handbag from day to day. If you've done a what's in my bag before, please link it below in the comments so I can take a sneaky look.

Love always,
Louise xoxo.

Sunday, 10 July 2016

My Top 5 Coconut Oil Tips & Tricks

So coconut oil was such a craze last year, everywhere on the net. For me it has been a staple in my beauty routine for years. So i'm back today to share my absolute favourite uses of this multi talented oil with you all. There are so many uses for coconut oil, I could go on and on (you all know I would). But these are my top 5 all time uses for coconut oil...

1. Makeup Remover
Unlike the typical makeup remover I use this method after I shower and wash off my makeup. First in the shower I pre-cleanse, using a makeup remover oil. After which I use my normal foaming cleanser. Once i'm out of the shower I rub maybe about half a teaspoon of coconut oil all over my face (including eyes and brows). I massage into my skin for about a minute after I apply to deeply recondition my skin. For the next step you need 2 cleansing wipes (I just use 2 cucumber and aloe baby wipes for this). Remove all coconut oil on the face and then eyes using one wipe. The second wipe is then used to take all the remaining coconut oil off the skin and the eyes (don't get coconut oil in your eyes if you have sensitive eyes like me it tends to not feel the most comfy). After which you just moisturise your skin as per normal. For me this makes my skin feel dewy, clean and hydrated. This is my number 1 favourite use of coconut oil... Ever!

2. Scalp & Hair Treatment
It has always been one of my weekly luxury DIY treatments I have done. I used to just use this particular method on the length of my hair (the ends). Recently I have also had a rash on my scalp that is there in one spot pretty much 90% of the time and itches like crazy. So now I also use this method to condition my scalp also. All I do is grab a tiny bowl and about 2 tablespoons of coconut oil. Pop the coconut oil in a bowl and to soften it abit I put it in the microwave for about 30 seconds (totally depends on your microwave and its power). Apply to the length of the hair and the scalp. I then go in and massage the product in for afew minutes. How long you leave it in is totally up to you. I like to leave it in while I sleep if I can (make sure you wear a disposable shower cap or use an old pillow case). Then just shampoo and condition as normal and you will be shining and as good as new.

3. Over Night Lip Treatment
Sounds pretty weird to use this tip in my top 5 I bet. But it is winter here in New Zealand and my lips are always and I mean always chapped and dry. No matter what I do, even this most of the time sadly. But my lips would be a whole lot worse if it wasn't for this magic trick. While i'm applying my serum, night cream and eye cream, I also grab my coconut oil and massage a small pea size amount into my lips. I then leave over night to absorb. Boom!

4. Hand & Foot Cream
You probably know how awesome coconut oil is for it's hydrating purposes. At first I never thought about using coconut oil on my hands and feet at all. Then I tried it for the first time and then I was hooked. There isn't any trick to this but to massage a generous amount into your hands and feet, concentrating on any dry or cracked areas. With the feet I then pop on some cotton socks to kind of "lock in" the moisture. With hands just continue with life as normal. When my hands and feet aren't in the best of ways, I use this tip daily then then they are a bit better for wear use this tip in a weekly pamper routine.

5. Stretch Mark Remover
My last tip for the day and one of my tops right now. To explain... The last time I had stretch marks this bad was, when I was about 11 years old and my hips just suddenly grew. Back then I wish I knew about coconut oil and the true benefits to this product. Taking you to the present day, I have purple stretch marks in exactly the same place as before but kind of branching off those earlier ones. I'm not ashamed of them though (as no one should be). Humans have them, it's just what it is. What I do want to do is obviously fade these marks as soon as possible. The method of using this is really, really simple. Twice daily I just massage the oil onto my hips and continue to massage for a few minutes. This step is really important as just applying the oil in itself sin't going to be a magic fix. Using the word magic, some think the marks (stretch marks) are going to disappear all together,,, Unfortunately they wont as the white marks will stay but to be honest they aren't that noticeable (well to me anyway).

So those were my top 5 all time coconut oil tips and tricks. I hope you honestly do try these all of them are gems. Using coconut oil is so cost effective I have saved gosh probably hundreds of dollars (not even joking) using these methods. See you next time!

Love always,
Louise xoxo.

Wednesday, 6 July 2016

Get To Know Me : Tag

Hey guys!
I'm back today with a tag called: Get To Know Me. I kind of jumped into the blog post yesturday, without most of you knowing who I am or what my deal is. Thought this would be a fun way to introduce myself properly. So hi! I'm Louise.
I got this idea and these questions from a blog called: Megan Has OCD
So let's get started!...

1. What is your middle name? Michelle. I'm Louise Michelle and I have a cousin who is Michelle Louise (she's younger than me though so I win hehe)

2. What was your favourite subject in school? If you knew me back in those days, you'd know I wasn't really a big fan of school. I did like food class sometimes and art.

3. What is your favourite drink? Non-Alcoholic: Redbull and ice coffee. Alcoholic: Champagne

4. What is your favourite song at the moment? Umm... I don't really have a favourite song. I am loving listening to NOFX.

5. What is your favourite food? Ow golly, where do I start? Fries with aioli, steak and pork belly with heaps of crackle. Mmmmm...

6. What is the last thing you bought? On Sunday my fiance and myself went over to Papamoa and at fashion island I bought a long grey knit from Dotti. On sale I might add (50% off).

7. Favourite book of all time? I don't really enjoy reading books. Blogs is a different story all together. But yeah i've never fully read a novel like ever in my life.

8. Favourite colour? Pink and green.

9. Do you have any pets? I have 3...
 A bunny called Quasimoto...

A cat called Kabuki...

 & a dog called Eva.

10. Favourite purfume? I am the pickiest person ever in the world. I only love one purfume so that's now all I wear. Juicy Couture Viva La Juicy.

11. Favourite holiday? I haven't been on a holiday in about 7 years but the best place i've ever been is Cairns, Australia.

12. Are you married? Not yet. Getting married in about 2 years. Viva Las Vegas baby.

13. Have you been out of the country, if so how many time? I have been to Australia a couple of times. Been on afew cruise ships around the south pacific as well.

14. Do you speak any other language? Nope. Pretty simple really. Haha I didn't mean i'm simple... Or maybe I am.

15. How many siblings do you have? One sister who is a year older than me.

16. What is your favourite shop? Dotti. It's great prices and great products.

17. Favourite restaurant? Myself and Simon love The Regent here in Rotorua. It's where we went on your first real date and also where we went on the night we got engaged.

18. When was the last time you cried? I was in PMS land acouple of weeks ago and watching The Biggest Loser makeover episode kind of got the tears flowing abit. I was hormonal don't judge aha.

19. Favourite blog? Hrh collection and boobs n loubs. If you know of any amazing blogs, let me know because i'm always on the look out for new blogs to follow.

20. Favourite movie? Jay and silent bob and Love you man. I always love a good giggle.

21. Favourite TV shows? 2 Broke Girls hands down.

22. Pc or mac? Pc even though I have an iphone and ipad I just like having a pc.

23. What phone do you have? Apple Iphone.

24. How tall are you? 5"6 or 166cm. Which is pretty average really isn't it?!

25. Can you cook? Not well I don't think but hey I try.

Ow jeeze by now yall probably think all my blog posts are going to be crazy long. Haha sorry bout it. If you by any chance have a blog then I tag you to do this wee questionnaire and remember to leave the link so I know where to find you (isn't as creepy as it sounds aha).
Have a great night or day where ever you are.

Love always,
Louise xoxo.

Tuesday, 5 July 2016

Anorexia : My Story & Recovery

Disclaimer: This is my story and my story only. I wanted to share my story. Some content may be triggering.

I feel like this is going to be the longest blog post you will ever read ever in your life. I never had the urge to tell my story until last night, I was lying in bed thinking about my past and I felt like I needed to get it all out.
If you're like me and you've over come something massive in your life...
Looking back now or even thinking back, the years kind of blur together. Even looking back at it all now, doesn't feel real to me.
This isn't really where the journey of it all began because ever since I can remember (early teens) i've always had a bad relationship but body image and eating.
This is just where the years of true restricting began...
I was 17 years old. I had just became a qualified makeup artistry. Moved back to Rotorua (where I grew up and family lived). Got into a relationship and scored my dream job. Sounds great right?! I didn't know but it was those two things that sent me down this spiral. I felt happy or so I thought. I didn't actually realise...The fact life was happening, made me freak out. Like I was growing up in a split second and I didn't want to. I can't remember thinking that I was going to take control of the one thing I felt like I could control. It just sought of happened...
It started. I cut out breakfast, snacks and lunch, only allowing myself to enjoy dinner. Also alcohol wasn't allowed, not even in the slightest. I allowed myself a "cheat" day each week, which I loved. A time where I could eat lunch on a Wednesday. My father normally took me to a bar called The Shed.
I didn't weigh myself well atleast for 6 months or so from the beginning of restricting, since I knew i'd hate what I saw. Then I got scales, the first time I weighed myself I got hooked. The major difference I saw was crazy and this was something I done. Just me... I was on my way to becoming the perfect person, the perfect girlfriend and the perfect daughter. From this point I was weighing myself around 5 times a day. I don't really know when this happened but I shut the world out. Even my best friends. I remember when they would throw parties or drinks i'd show up. Sit there for awhile then leave. At work it would be lunch time and in the staff room I remember thinking to myself "why are all these people eating? Surely this isn't normal?!" Drinking Redbull on an empty stomach became my vice. I can't even explain the way it made me feel. The way it tasted... Sounds crazy I know. At the beginning dropping the weight was easy. I didn't get sick. I suddenly started to. Get sick all the time. My hair started falling out and I started blacking out alot. Every day after work i'd get home and while the jug was boiling for my after work coffee I remember sitting on the lino in the kitchen breathing in and out so I wouldn't pass out. I didn't pass out all that often but afew times was at work and I remember the ambulance and my mum coming into the locker room and had to get pushed through work which was so embarassing. Even at the time I felt like I wasn't in my body I was just looking at myself.
My relationship  started to fall apart. We would fight because I hated myself so much. Can't explain it other than that. I really did, for no reason at all I was my own worst enemy.
Then... I stopped loosing weight. I had to step it up a notch. No Wednesday lunch and no just having "anything" for dinner each night.
Slowly and I mean slowly I kept losing weight...
I just to look in the mirror and just cry my eyes out because I had no idea who that person was staring back at me.
One night I was having a fight with my boyfriend and I felt like things were going to end unless I came out with it. In a second of my walls coming down I came out with it... "I have an eating disorder". That's at least what I remember saying, i'm not sure if I actually said that. Literally a split second after saying those few words my brain was fighting back "you're not skinny enough to get help" "How dare you tell someone about your secret" "You don't deserve to get better". He then called my parents and they came straight over. Organising going to see the doctor that night and not that anything was any of their fault but I didn't know how no one saw it. Maybe I was really good at hiding stuff or maybe I just honestly wasn't skinny enough?!
I started seeing a psychologist and I wasn't loving it to say the least. I had to decide between dying soon and living. I don't say that lightly but I really rationally knew that if nothing changed then soon there wouldn't be a life to save. Each waking moment day my thoughts were about that one appointment at the psychologist that week. I wasn't good at connecting feelings to the way I really felt or things in life that happened. I honestly just don't think she was right for me. In New Zealand, unless you're a minor there isn't alot they do about eating disorders apart from just hospital. Lucky for me my heart was still on track and I was as healthy as I could be in that moment.

This photo was after I started my recovery journey. I remember asking my friend to take a photo of me because this will be the skinniest I will ever be again. Even sounds backwards me typing that to be honest.
I decided to get better by myself which was not something people clostest to be liked the idea of. But I actually started doing it. Eating lunch eventually again. Cutting back on Redbull and concentrating on myself again. This was a slow process, even slower than I thought. I honestly thought that when I ate again i'd puff up and gain a million kg in a second. After about six months or so I got rid of my scales and I was finally okay with that. A day before it was one year since I started my recovery journey I decided to get a tattoo. Something to say: Yes i've come this far and ima keep on going.

At the time when I got this tattoo I still wasn't 100% into the idea of recovery and being well, even though it has been a year since I started. If you don't know what it is, this tattoo is the NEDA symbol (national eating disorder association). Somehow from then this story comes to now. I love myself (in a non vein way). Everyone should. It took me about 23 years to and now at 25 years old i'm stronger than ever. I wish I could say that the disordered thoughts go away and it magically is all rainbows and ponies. Sadly not. The thoughts will always be there. But the difference is, now I just don't have the time of day to listen to them. I'm here to live life and not just be alive because there is no frigin' point in that.

I just want to say one last thing. If you need someone to talk to, i'm always here. I don't know alot but what I do know is that talking to someone can help so much. If not me then maybe open up to someone you know and love. Remember to live life and no matter what your past, it's not what defines you.

Love always,
Louise xoxo.